Cheers to New Beginnings

We all seem to find a sense of comfort in familiarity. It’s like something in our life becomes so constant that we forget that there was once a time where we were able to live without it. Walking down the path towards my house, I came to the realisation that as much as I might say I hate this small town, I’m comfortable in it. As I walk, I’ll greet the kind couple who work at the convenience store and gaze at the same houses, capturing every angle of them as if I won’t ever see them again. I’ll see the same people stumbling on the sidewalk as they attempt to control the amount of alcohol in their system while I struggle to do the same. I’ll order the same food from the same restaurant and have a friendly conversation with the manager. It’s all the same and it will always remain that way. I’ve come to a point where I want more out of my life than this, and in 3 weeks, I will be beginning a whole new chapter. Right now, it’s all just bland, and in simpler terms, boring.

I want more, but I’m afraid of more. I’m terrified I won’t be able to handle another new town and new people, new traditions. I could dye my hair and change my wardrobe and present myself however I wish to. I could be someone completely different. I’ll probably be the same, but it’s always nice to have that option. I’ve always wanted this. Well, not always. This is the longest time I’ve ever stayed in one town. Seven years. Seven years of the same place. I wanted a place that I could call home but my family loved to move all the time. Unlike me, they love change. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate change. It just scares me. I won’t have my parents or my friends or the comfort of a small town. I’ll just have myself and hope that’s enough. I’ll have to build myself all over again without anyone’s help.

I guess it’s all hitting me now and that’s why I’m scared. I’m scared I won’t be enough. Maybe I won’t be good enough or smart enough or fun enough. But whatever happens, I’ll be satisfied that I gave it my all and showed these people and this school who I am and what I can do. And all I can do is make that effort and hope everything will be okay. Three more weeks. Three more weeks until I can learn to be happy and independent. Only time will tell how it’ll turn out. For now, all I can do is wait and enjoy the time I have left here.

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The Perfect Day

A few days ago, I experienced a day I think that will stay in my mind forever. You see, I thought I had a perfect day but after experiencing this one, I realized that nothing could top it. My best friend and I decided to go on a walk at 4am and around 7am, we went to the beach. Sitting there on the rocks by the shore and just watching the waves flow gently, I had a moment of clarity. I lost my worries for that moment as we just sat in silence and took in the beauty that surrounded us. That is what life is about, isn’t it? It’s not about getting the latest technology or wearing the right clothes, or for us girls, talking to a bunch of boys. It’s about appreciating the little details and the beauty of nature that we’re surrounded with each and every day. We’re all so concerned about our daily tasks that we tend to forget about it. We forget to appreciate the simple things. The things that are worth living for.I watched my friend draw in the sand and just moments later, it would be overcome by water and just disappear. But that didn’t stop her. You could see little marks left of what she had created but that was all, and in that moment, I understood life. Memories won’t last forever. Days like this would end. But that mark would always remain there. It would stay with you and it’s up to you whether you want to cherish it, or forget about it.

You can start over and become a new you whenever you please. It doesn’t mean you forget about your past, but it means that you’ve learned to accept it and move on. Who you once were will always stay with you, but it’s your choice whether you want to learn and grow from it, or remain the same.

Are you satisfied with the person you are right now? If not, are you willing to take the chance and change what you don’t like? I’ve learned that as much as you want to be able to, you can’t change another person. You have to accept who they are and what they choose to do with their life. But you can change yourself and become the best you. There’s so many choices that we don’t realize we have to make. We’re carving our path every day but we don’t see the impact that little decisions can make and how they can alter our future. Anyone has the potential to do anything. It’s all about taking the risk. The question is, are you willing to?

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